Well, it's been four months and seven days since my darling passed away and where am I now? I am trying to rebuild my life one step at a time, trying to ignore the little voice that occasionally asks "what's the point". I am starting to do things that I enjoy, although those things feel more like they are floating on the surface of life rather than being an integral part of it.
It is difficult for me to jump into what others would call a 'normal' life too quickly. A planned 4 week trip lasted less than a week, but at least I managed that much. Little steps then, and I will rebuild.
So at this time I would like to thank those that left me comments and thoughts of sympathy on my last Journal. I loved the inspirational thoughts left by enigmaticworld, reflecting as they do my own beliefs although in apparent contradiction I cry every time I read them. All the comments helped, not to eliminate the grief, but to make it a little easier to deal with.
I am again working in wood although the first piece was a tabletop desk I had promised my wife and which I am using in her memory and the second a casket for her ashes which will also hold mine when my time comes. It is good to know that I can still do it, though my attention span is somewhat shorter than it was. Photography is a challenge as I am having to re-learn what had become automatic, but I will get there in time. My life has become slower paced and more introspective but it is beginning to feel comfortable.
And I still love and miss my darling so much.
Again, thank you all.